The Ugly One

Since when I'm so pesimistic? Since when I hate this world?
As a child of the God, I should love this world. I know that I'm so bad to hate it.
I have told Cao Mei If I'm God that created 'HUMAN', I'll definitely destroy this cruel and ugly world.
What is the purpose of letting those ulgy human being to be the controller of this world?
The earth was so beautiful... the selfishness of human being to develop the country, the world... global warming is one of the bad impact.
Human keeps complaining that the weather is getting hot compare with last time. But, do they ever think why this scenario could happend? Even simply throwing trash will caused bad impact to this lovely world. Do they ever think before?
Human being just knows how to complain... never think of a solution to solve the problem.

I agreed to my friend, who said that we are now at stage 2 and 3. Perhaps, we have grown. Never have a childhood or youngsters thinking anymore after we have seen the real world. I do not have peace in my heart anymore. Anxiety fills the whole heart. I had dream before that my dad die of spreading disease. I'm so worry that this dream will be true. I've tried to forget the scene in the dream but I could not. Hmmm..... I really hope that I can have a peace like the river.

Until now, I don't even know what God created human. If He knows that human can betray him, will He still create human? Oh ya~ I've forgotten that, God is being betrayed by human. So, it's not surprise if we human are being betray by human themselves too...

Argghhhhh~~!!!!!!! Really don't know how to release the anger of my heart. Maybe I'm too 'gray' to see things so evil.. Every single thing she did will let me have a feeling of being betrayed!!!