Sour Grape

In this world, there are people that will say the grape is sour, if they can't taste it. There is one song when I was in primary school time, saying that a wolf can't get the grape from the grape plant because the grape plant is too high for it, and the wolf claims that the grape is sour. I have forgotten about the lyric and rythm, but the photo is still clear in my memory.

I have come accross a friend of mine, saying that proton and produa car is a toy. He rather ride bike and refuse to get a local made car for himself. He said that, one day when he wants to get a car for himself, he will for sure to get a non local one, as of Honda or Toyota.

Many times when we have function at night, he will ask for our tolerance of not to go out late because he has to ride bike to join our function. And yes, as a friend that mixed around for so many years, we do not mind to tolerate this. But at times he will complains that: Hey, I'm riding motor, not like you people, driving car. I'll reply him in my heart that, you yourself deserve it. You can get a local car for temporary, then only change to a non local one when you are affordable one day... and now, stop complaining. Look, I really don't understand him.

When I received my friend's wedding news, I was so excited, my heart is full of joy and is looking forward for the wedding day. Is marriage means the grave of love? Why should a person says to the groom that, your day of punishment has arrive? or, why should a person says that, although you are very strong outside, but you are just like a kitten at home when you are with your wife? If it is so, that you as a man will also face what you have said today? Is it because you feel sour that you does not have a partner yet? I knew that you will say no, I rather be alone than getting in a relationship.

Everyone has to go through death, non of us could escape from death. Just because of your aunt's death, you used to publish to the public that the God has taken away her life? And claimed that this is the creature of the God, this is what God's work. Yes, your aunt loves you very much, and she is a good person. Good person need not to die? So how about Jesus, the son of God? Is it fair that Jesus die for the sinner is his late 30's? Fair? Why were you so subjective and so ignorant to publish the coffin of your aunt to FB?

Motivation

I was reminded by a phone call of something last Sunday. My cousin sis (my uncle's daughter) told me that my cousin brother (my aunt's son) said that all the grandchildren of my grandmother is useless. None of them are successful in their life. Hey, who you think you are? Just an accountant in DELL. If you think you are so good and successful, please think back of those days. Who pay for the education fee for you? Who pay you the money while you were in Australia? Ask your mother don't come and ask for the money from my father if you guys are so capable. Your father should have this responsibily to give you the education fee, not my father. Don't be so arrogant for your succeed.

I'm not gonna avoid of you but to stand in front of you and tell you: Hey, how much salary are you taking now? Hey, you only has a house in leader garden? and a second hand one? And so? driving a proton iswara which down payment was from your mother? That's all? Nothing more right? So please be low profile and keep your big mouth shut! Don't tell the fXXking thing that non Levi's jean is not human wearable apparel. Not that we cannot buy Levi's jean, it's whether we want to buy or not.

In my life, I just wish to pass it peacefully. Without climbing up, without looking on the high position. You are the one who give me this motivation! You can? and so do I!

FXXX

who u think u are????? same level with me nia... older than me for 3 years old also same level only! dont act like u are in a high level!!!!! FXXX U!

CNY

I have not been tasted mom's cooking since my niece borned. Mom has no time to cook after a tiring baby sitting of my niece. She's too active... Mom has to keep an eye on her every moment. On the Chinese New Year Eve, mom returned. I help to prepare for the ingrediants, like peel prawn shell, cutting the vege and etc. Let the photo says.


Drunken Prawn. I help to cut the head and the legs. Just apply some salt on the prawn, pour some chinese wine and then steam for 10 minutes. Taste good. 600 grams of prawn cost RM30. Mom bought 1200 grams.




















Kailan with chicken liver? Dunno how to call it in English. Taste good too, but I did not eat the chicken liver. The prawn shell is taken away by me =) My hand smell funny after peeling the shell.


















This plate of mix vege cost expensive. Ingrediants are: Sea cucumber, dried oyster, prawn, mushroom, button mushroom, dried scallope, "abalone" the cheap one..., carrot, which my niece called it as "ah pit".



















Cooking in progress.. inside the pan.



















Eat.... There were steam fish and "tu tor" soup.


















Here comes our 接班人

I'm still happy

I used to hypnotize myself that I have to love my enemy. This is the teaching from the Bible, from Jesus. Lot of times, I just force myself to be good to my enemy, and the one that I hate. Maybe this is the trial of the satan, who wants me to fall. I dunno... just a guess.

But, regardless of how they hate me or dislike me, I do not have the feeling. Because to me, they are no my friend. Just a crossing by person. I will only be sad if i'm being hate by my beloved friends...and I clearly know that they won't do this to me =) So, I'm still a happy person.

三星期

看了看日历，离你最后工作天只剩三星期。
三星期，多么短的时间啊！
你啊，就是这样。决定了的事情绝对会坚持着。

我得适应每个早上路过我岗位的人不再是你。
我得适应不再听到突然的狂笑。
我得适应不再听到突然有人唱歌。
我得适应早餐买少一份。
我得适应。。。

嫉妒是人的软弱。
贪婪是人的软弱。
计较亦是人的软弱。
我每天在求主给我一颗爱人的心，保守着我的心思意念。
纵使以前发生了什么，我毅然把你当做是我很好很好的朋友。

我没敢向你要求些什么，因为我不配。
可你要记得照顾好自己，不要时常熬夜，不要没吃饭。

三星期后的今天，我怕我又在你面前失态。
我感谢上帝那么的爱我，赐给我一位那么好的朋友。

Evil

Sometimes I feel that there is an evil staying in my heart.
I try not to think in a bad way, but it seems like there is an echo in my heart screaming for evil thoughts. And then, I will tell myself that, NO! I cannot think this way. This is not a good thoughts that I should have think. I should view things in a good side, I should think the other way. But why evil always win? I tried to let the angel to defeat the evil. I'm trying, I'm learning.

幸福？

曾经以为我很幸福。
原来我错了。
而且是错得很白痴！
回头一看，原来白费了八年！

我再也不相信世上有好人，尤其是男的。
我再也不相信世上有完美的人。
试问我还能把自己交托给谁？
倒不如靠自己。
我要在最短的时间赚最多的钱！
你以为只有你可以吗？

我对自己说：从今天开始，我绝对不会让自己受委屈！

最讨厌

话说“最讨厌”。
什么样的人是我最讨厌的呢？
迟到的人。

自从我开始了网站生意后，面交客人是日常生活的一部分。
差不多一星期要与客人面交至少一次。
而我每一次都把时间安排得妥当。
先是遇A，再来遇B，然后去C。
如果其中一个迟到，我接下来的schedule将全部延迟。
延迟事小，反而给以后的客人留下不好的印象事大。

有的人，你一事先跟她说6。30见。
如果不能，可以叫我延迟时间。
她们偏偏说可以，然后6。15我简讯她们说我在路上了，15分钟到。
已经一而再，再而三的提醒，免得她们再迟到了。
6。30准我到了，简讯她们了。
而她们的almost reach，可以7。00才到。
脸皮可以厚成这个程度。
而且不是一次，是每一次都迟到，每一次的迟到都半小时！

我是一个很吝啬的人。
尤其是车子停下等人的时候会把引擎关上。
如果不这么做，车子停下半小时会耗费我很多的汽油。
很不幸的，车窗坏了。
所以我都在车子里Kuk Saunna。
Kuk 到我快没气了才开引擎5分钟，然后又关上。
可能因为这样，才会那么瘦。
对，我是个苦命的人。
不会享受，竟然这样委屈自己。
有谁能这样？
kuk 到整件衣服都湿了，头发也湿了。
可能车窗外的三轮车阿伯以为我是傻子。

回来标题。
迟到的人。。。难道她们不知道要人等是件很不要脸的事吗？
而且还不是朋友哦。。。
迟到了竟然还可以跟你说：almost reach / on the way / one corner
可能这是马来西亚的习惯。
我最最最不能忍受的就是等人的滋味。
5分钟还好。
10分钟开始不耐烦。
15分钟我的火就来了。
20分钟我开始要骂人。
25分钟我会臭脸给人看。

我的朋友兼同事都知道，我一旦睡不醒来不及准时上班的话我都不洗澡。
因为我真的真的没办法迟到！

不平衡

我觉得我的心情很不平衡。
我有读别人的部落格的习惯。
而且还是我不认识的人。
虽然我不认识，可是我不知道我为什么还常看她们有没有update她们的blog.

为什么她们样貌麻麻地，可是却常有水鱼送礼物？
而且还不是便宜的。
是名牌，而且是大牌。
为什么为什么。
这个问题在我读她们的blog的时候浮在我的脑里。

她们的blog里都会有跟另一半的合照。
我曾问过自己，如果那个人的男朋友给我的话我会怎样。
结果是，真的不能去的那一种人。
所以我常告诉自己。这世界都是有舍有得。
手指都有长有短。
那里说要求全部都长的？

可是纵使我怎样安慰自己，我的心理还是一样的不平衡啦！！！为什么？？！！

Selfishness

I have read the article from a blog sent by my friend this morning. A feeling of heartache, sad and sour in my heart. I have ever thought of dead before my parents. Because I do not want the feeling of losing my love ones. I rather letting them to have the feeling. I always think that, how good if I encounter accident and then my life ends.

After reading the article, I can feel that sadness of the parents. Can you imagine their feeling while they were sitting at the shore, waiting for their sons "dead body"? Can you imagine their feeling when they see their son in a black plastic bag? No response are given when the parents scream at their name. How hopeless were they? How sad were they?

I can never never imagine...and I was being so selfish to have the intention to hurt my parents... in other way.

New Year

An old fashion word, "time flies". I still can remember very clearly that what I have wrote in my blog for last year's Chinese New Year. Just a clip of eyes, one year has passed.

Kids love CNY, for playing fire crackers, for receiving red packets, for the food, for the busy environment of relatives and friends visiting, for school holiday. As an adult of 27 years old, I have used to the festival... just like... oh.. it's CNY again.. Nothing special. Just to make life different, we just make ourselves busy, just to "entertain" the festival. Dad is coming back next Saturday. As usual, mom will cook for that night. We do not eat stemboat for reunion dinner...as most of the people will have steamboat. A dinner which is much more easy for food preperation compare to cooked dishes. Dad does not like steamboat... He says that it's tastless and he does not like the balls.. fish ball, meat ball, hok chew ball....

Mmmm... New Year, a brand new year and I hope that everything will be good for my family this year. No quarrels, no tears, no sickness. Hope all everybody be prospereous, in work, in life, everything! Last but not least, hope dad will retire this year!