生命的脆弱

渐渐的，我感觉到生活不知是为了什么？
人，既然要死，为何还要生？
我很怕亲人突然的离开。
我不能接受。
哭了，每次想到这件事就会很怕，眼泪不听使唤的流下。

树欲静而风不止，自欲养而亲不在！
学着珍惜，学着去爱。

赞美主

我常跟宾说，我是一个很低调的人，我是一个很没大志的人。
最好可以无惊无险的上下班。
最好有什么大事不要inccur我。
我在会议室常是个聆听者。
因为我是个怕死的人。
我怕我说错话，得罪人都不知道。
我怕我乱乱commit.
我怕我英语没人听懂。
总而言之，我很没有自信。
所以人家说什么我都只会说OK, OK, no problem.
有问题的时候自己就会很压力，因为我已经说OK了。
所以怎样死都要死出个方案来。
上帝是个听祷告的主。
每次我的脑被塞住的时候，他一定会给我想到其它的办法。
所以我每次都很侥幸的通过一个又一个的关卡。
赞美主！

祝福，挚友

很高兴听到他们向我宣布喜讯。
长跑的爱情终于可以开花与结果。
心里那份感动非墨笔能形容。
希望可以为他们做点什么。
可是矛盾的想，可能我太多余了。
两人的喜事该由两人自己包办。
可能我想太多了。
挚友，祝福你。
如果须要人帮忙的事情别忘了远方有我。

Perfect

Nothing is perfect in this world. When you got a list of requirements to be fulfill, you might get A, B and C fulfilled, and left out D. When you got A, C, D fulfilled, you might lack of B. This is when we need to learn how to weight the importance of our requirement. But what if all the requirments are equally important? Then we have to sacrifice something. So, what will be the something to be sacrificed?

Appreciate

Since small, we have being taught in the school that we must not waste. Like, switch off the light when nobody is using it. Switch on the fan when nobody is using it. Close the tap after washing and etc. That's in morale class.

Not only we must not waste those resources, the most important thing is we must not waste food. I'm sure we're being taught when we were small, by teachers, by parents, and by those elders. Since small, I used to finished the food on my plate, even a rice (I scare my future husband face will mor peng.. hahhahaha).

Many times we human being does not appreciate things when we own it. We complain, this and that but never think of the other side. How people admire us and get jealous of us. Nothing, is just because we have food. Even how tasteless the food is, there will feel it's delicious. They need food just to fill their hunger. We need food is just to fill our satisfaction. Ever seen forward emails of kids eating mud, I cannot really imagine the smell and the feeling but keep asking myself: why shall this happend? Why? It's very cruel for them, they are so innocent to be brought to this world and yet, have a suffering life. Please please appreciate what you have and what you own. Think of the others before you act!

Wedding

Just back from Facebook. Why suddenly so many people getting marry? Shocked me & surprised me. Is it a trend? Or is it the time? Or is it the age =P

Mmmm... What is the reason behind marriage? Some people think that getting marry is just a process after being together for years. Some people think that, it's just a human nature. Grow big, find girl friend boy friend, marry and deliver baby. Some people think that it's for old age accompanian. I don't want to get marry just because of want to get marry. Huh? What am I talking about? 我不要为了结婚而结婚.

2 person grew up in different family, have live in their own lifestyle. Will they compatible after they get marry? mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...................

做人 Hum Hum

I have went back to my house on Saturday morning. Early in the morning, the weather was very good. I have taken a photo from the car, the scene of blue sky and our beatiful Penang bridge. After we passed the center of the bridge, the traffic had slow down. Guess, it might be accident happend in front. We were in the middle lane. The most outer lane vehicle cut into the middle lane and I saw there is an ambulance, police car stopped at the most outer lane. When our car passed by, I saw a man lying on the floor with blood, covered with a white cloth from head to leg. Manage to see his feet, and that's why I know that it's a He. The blood has contaminate the upper part of the white cloth. Obviously, the head bleeds.

I'm so pain at that time. Tried not to think so much. But I can't control my emotion. I kept quite, saying nothing in the car. I was thinking, their family member will receive the call from somebody there. The content would be: Is this Mr. XXX family member? You husband/father/son has met an accident and he is dead. Imagine, how will his belove wife/children/parent take it? I'll collapse if I'm the person who answer this call. When the man cross the bridge, he will never know that, this is his last journey. Everything is not prepared, and he is dead. All things left behind, will be nothing. He could not even bring anything together with him, and he has left the world, left behind his family.

This morning, heard my colleague said that her friend passed away when she gave birth to a baby. It's suppose to be a happy moment for both the husband and wife. Who knows, it's the opposite. How can the husband take this fact? Seeing his own wife to die in front of him and he could not even do anything. Blood has covered the whole floor and there is no help from the hospital personnel. Where has the doctor gone? What is the reality behind? What caused the dead of the mother and baby? Sometimes I don't know that, being a doctor, there just want to earn more money or their so ambitious to save people's life?

Being a human, hum hum nia... So I want to be good to myself!!!

KPC

是我还在意或是太鸡婆？