Controling of Life

Somtimes when I have nothing to do, I'll sit down and think. Think of money, think of my family, think of my room decor and think of how people see me.

Human in this world, have their own thinking, own point of view. I can't control theirs and they can't control mine. I may think that A is wrong but others might feel that A is correct and vice versa.

For example, I keep thinking, why should a husband and wife deliver baby? What is the reason for them to bring a life to this world? Some may say:
1. It's a normal life cycle
2. To take care of us when we become old one day
3. People have, so do we
4. Baby is cute

For me, I'll say:
1. It's a normal life cycle - are you abnormal now?
2. To take care of us when we become old one day - can you gaurantee that they will be filial to you when you are old? what if they want to have a better career and migrate to other country?
3. People have, so do we - don't you have your own point of view? what if people rob?
4. Baby is cute - meaning that you are so selfish to deliver a baby just for your entertainment.

Some people have lots of children. Some people felt that one is enough. For those who has lots of children might think that, in case one child faced any accident and pass away, at least there are more to "spare". Just like the subsitution or spare tyre in a rude way of thinking.

My mom used to tell my brother that having a child is more than enough. Have to cultivate the child, give her the best education he could, urging him to keep some money every month for her future education. Some might think that my mom is controling the child. Taking away her freedom and do not let the child to do whatever she wants. Lets assume that my brother has 2 or 3 children with the income which can only feed one child. He will spent his money just for food, daily needs for his children, no more extra to save. When both of his chidlren grow up, he does not have money for the education. Without high education, what will the children be? Clerk? Assistant? Promoter? Machinist? Driver? Will the children blame their parents for not providing them enough education in order to get a better job? Will the parents feel sad if they are being blame, for the reason that they don't have enough money for their education as the income is just sufficient for their daily livings? Giving them the best thing and education is controling a robot? Is this the way?

I just felt that, having one child and give them all we could is the way that we love them very much. Having more than one child with low capability, just to act as a subsitution is a very selfish thinking.

Yes, you still can find some people with low education in exempt level. But this is just some lucky group. I just encounter some minority one.. so far... they are lucky enough.

Anyhow, I'm very greatful and thankful to my dearest parents for providing me enough education. They will never say NO if I need any extra money for extra courses or extra textbook during my school time. I'm thankful to them for sending me to computer classes, tuition classes, drawing classes... which my family income is just depeding on my father's work. They work so hard, because they hope that their children can have better life, as they could not receive the education that they desire and end up to have a low income job. Since small, dad always tell me that I have to study hard, to have a better life. Till now, which I have came out to the society to work, he never wants any cents from me... and urging me to save more money for my future family. Are they controling my life?