Time for family

I'm going to Macau this Saturday. Don't even have the excited feeling, but it's full of guiltiness. Mmmm... why? Because my dad is coming back, and I should spend time at home instead of having my own holiday.

Think back, I do not like to follow my parents for outing when I was small. Dad & Mom used to go to Penang every Sunday. I prefer to stay at home, playing ICQ & MIRC, which is very hit at that time. I spent time with friends more than my family. I felt that, going out with them is very embrassing. Which, most of the teenager will only hang out with friends, but not old folks. Yes, I admit I think like that last time.

Since when I like to spend time with my family? I don't know. I think is after I went to KL for study. I used to call mom when I was in the hostel, feeling so lonely. Pressure with studies, pressure with exams, just one button press to miss call mom and she will definitely call me immediately. Yes, I know she missed me a lot too. She came to KL, stayed at aunt's house and i'll overnight at aunt's house during weekend. Her driver will stop the car at the main entrance, and after the class I'll straight away go to aunt's house until Monday's class. Missed those days.

Alright, why I like to spend time with parents now? Mmm... Is just a feeling like, they are so old. I don't know how much time I can spend with them. Besides, you will not know what will happend tomorrow. So, I just want to tressure them before everything is too late. I know I will cry like hell if they leave me one day. But at least, I have try my best to accompany them when they need my accompaniment.

Everytime, I try to avoid for weekend activities as I have book myself for my family. Some of my friend don't understand why I prefer to stay at home during the weekend. Yes, If I stay with my family everyday, then it's not a problem to go out during weekend. The problem is, I only manage to go home during weekend, just once a week, or perhaps, during the public holiday.

I cannot and dare not imagine, how much time left for me to accompany my parents. How good if I leave them first, but not for them to leave me first.