Dad

I had a long talk with dad last Satruday night through the phone. He was asking for my opinion whether to come back or not. Of course, as a daughter, I encourage him to come back and I really hope that he could retire to enjoy his twilight year. As a traditional chinese man, he insist to take care of the family by supplying enough income.

In the conversation, dad told me that, he would also like to get himself retire. But, he knew that, if he retire, he will then burden his children. Which is brother and I. He said that, one place minus, one place will add on. He will stop providing money, which is minus. His children will be more burden, which is add on. My tears keep rolling in the eyes and I force myself not letting it to drop. I know I have to be firm, I have to be strong, I have to let my father knows that, I can help for the family without his support. I want him to know that, I'm willing to do so. He said that, he is giving me pressure, which he did not want to. And I told him that I'm not under pressure as I have my own plan. I hope he can really take into consideration for what I have proposed him.

My heart is so painful when dad told me that, he wants to work until he could not work. And the current situation is, he has to rush for his lunch and back to office as fast as he could to take a few minutes nap as he is really tired. He is 61 this year but is still physically strong. This is what I should thank God.

Dad has never ever think for himself first. Family is always the first priority for him. Which I really respect and salute him. Sometimes I see wrinkle on his face, white hair becoming more and more, I'll be very anxious. I could not afford of losing him one day. This is impossible as everybody has to leave this world one day. The only thing I can do is to convince dad to retire and to enjoy his twilight year. Which, I hope God will listen to my prayer...